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Time to Quit

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  1. Being Aware is a Great Start

    06/24/09 07:26:37 | 0 COMMENTS

    I think that simply being aware of how many, where and when one smokes is half the battle to quitting.

    3 days ago I went to bed and thought, "Ok, it's been 8 weeks now since breaking my ribs and therefore as I promised myself to attempt to quit again, now is the time".

    The following day I didn't attempt to cut down but instead simply made sure that I didn't empty the ashtray all day. At the end of the day I counted 16 butts. Once I knew what my daily quoter had built up to I had something to go by in the fight to cut down.

    Day 2, I didn't attempt to cut down but being aware all day that I was going to cut down made me conscious of every time I went to roll a cigarette. Too often we reach for a ciggie without thinking and to make matters worse we smoke it without even being aware that we are smoking. Especially when on the comp, reading or watching TV. So being aware of every time I started to roll a ciggie my next thought was, do I really want this at this time?? NO!! I will make a cup of tea in a minute and have a ciggie with that.

    Doing that I ended up smoking only 12 that day. Cutting down by 4 with no feelings of depriving myself was great I thought.

    Day 3, exactly the same, until it came to late at night and I ended up in a chatroom yacking to a friend. That cost me the 4 cigs I had lost the day before. I ended up smoking 16 again that day. Why, because I was so busy yacking away that I was rolling fags like there was no tomorrow. I had stopped being aware of when I was rolling them, being too interested in reading the screen from my friends gossip.

    Today Day 4 and I am doing fantastically. I looked at the clock at 4pm and I had only smoked 4 cigarettes. I have no idea why it's only been 4. I can't even remember what I have been doing today to stop me thinking about rolling up. Weird!!! Of course the draw back of looking at the clock and realising that I had only smoked 4 cigarette has made me think of having another one. That one sits in the ashtray beside me waiting yet to be lit.
  2. The Time Has Come

    06/13/09 12:22:21 | 3 COMMENTS

    For me to seriously start thinking about quitting again.

    I have no excuse now as my ribs are almost healed. The excuse was genuine as I couldn't have bore the thought of coughing as the gunk left my body whilst having cracked ribs.

    I now need to go right back to the beginning again and start counting the cigs I smoke and gradually cut down to a comfortable amount ready to cut them out all together.

    This time though I think I am going to do it with patches or some other nicotine replacement.

    Tomorrow I will set up my new plan.


  3. Starting Out Again

    05/11/09 09:05:03 | 1 COMMENTS

    Am I disappointed I started to smoke again?? Actually no. Not at this point in time anyway.

    I have felt like crap since cracking my ribs and what with the pain and also the depression it has brought, the last thing on my mind has been feeling bad about smoking again.

    Today I have smoked 6 cigs and it's now 6pm. I don't think that is too bad and I am watching how many I smoke at the moment.

    I will try to not only keep them down but to also get back to the amount I was smoking a day when I finally made the decision to cut them out totally.

    I will quit eventually I am positive of that.


  4. This Would Have Been Day 13

    05/10/09 16:37:08 | 3 COMMENTS

    Yup, this would have been day 13 but it's not.

    I am smoking again and have been for a couple of days now. I sunk into a rotten depression after cracking my ribs and being in so much pain. I hated having to have others do things for me that I normally do for myself, and on top of that Sarah and Mark had just moved into their new house where they had loads of work to do and instead of me being able to knuckle down and help them I was causing them more work.

    I am now back home because I felt I had already put Sarah and Mark out enough, even though they both said that there really was no need for me to go home and I could stay as long as I wanted. I think 5 days was well long enough for me to be there.

    I am so pissed off at the moment that I honestly don't think there is any point in me trying to stop. I am however keeping them down to as few as possible.

    I have smoked too many now to say this is a slip up. Instead I am going to have to take it from the top again.


  5. Days 7, 8 & 9 Inclusive

    05/06/09 14:15:22 | 15 COMMENTS

    Day 7, Monday, was going with a swing. Only had to get to midnight and I would have been home free for a whole week. Then approximately at 8pm as you all know by now I broke my ribs and ended up spending from 9 - Midnight in the A & E.

    I can't believe that I was such a whimp but I actually went into shock. Couldn't stop shaking and desperately wanted to throw up. Maybe it was because I was alone when it happened. I was fine until Sarah and Mark arrived to drive me to the hossy. Once I was in the car my body seemed to have a life of it's own with uncontrollable shaking. Thank God I managed to stop myself actually being sick because I don't think I could have stood the pain in my chest if I had have done. I was terrified of throwing up.

    Once I was in a hospital cubical and I was in the hands of the medical staff I was fine and completely calmed down, but on arriving home my first thought was of a cigarette. I had one that night even though the instructions from the hossy was not to smoke.

    The following day (day 8) I had another 2 cigarettes. This morning I woke up and the first thing I did was went out into Sarah's garden to light up. I put the fag in my mouth and then thought NO!! I am not going to do this. Instead I put on a patch and I haven't touched another cigarette and don't intend to again.

    I am not angry with myself, or even disappointed. Smoking those 3 cigarettes have proved to me that 100% I don't want to smoke and that I can quit. I didn't enjoy those fags and I didn't even smoke all of each one. Less than half of each and I threw them away.

    I know I am now back on track.


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